To teach or not to teach!

[hebbam]

I recently completed my 2nd quarter student teaching 4th & 5th grade. I got my clear credential. Long story short, my 2nd quarter experience was horrible. In that I mean, my master teacher was not helpful and I didn't learn much from her. I felt she was trying to set me up to fail. The first week she was extremely kind and excited that I was her first student teacher. She made a mistake with the school principal, going against his rule, and left me in the class without a substitute teacher. Two of her students who are known to dislike each other, got in a fight during a math quiz. The principal found out and over the loud speaker, angrily called my master teacher to come in to the office. After that episode everything changed. Nevertheless, my supervisor thought that I was an effective teacher during her visits. My master teacher refused to give me written recommendation. That experience left me with doubts or perhaps loss of desire to teach. I'm struggling with these feelings and finding them to leave me depressed all the time. I did great in K class, first quarter, and my master teacher thought highly of me. She was very helpful. If you have any idea, suggestion, or advice, It will be deeply appreciated.

[hggift]

It sounds like because of one issue and one person that you are ready to give up. If teaching is what you truly want to do then you will find a way to get through this situation. It sounds like both you and the Master Teacher made some mistakes. Maybe you could speak with the Master Teacher as it could give both of you the opportunity to discuss those errors made and find ways together to avoid them in the future. Furthermore, reassure the Master Teacher that you are not here as a threat but to learn from someone with the expertise necessary to give you a hand up. Hopefully, it can clear the air. We all make mistakes so it's good to realize that no one is perfect!